Category: Poems & Stories

Original pieces submitted by Ashleigh Noelle, TSW contributers and readers!

Freestyle: My Truth.

It’s been 21 years since they’ve last touched me

And yet here I am every fall and winter, in shambles

See I don’t remember the exact time

I just remember the cold

I remember what happened when I tried and told

You what those fools were doing to me

Instead of protecting me, you chastised me

You sent me in the cold with my purple jacket on

You whipped my ass, and lied to my mom later on

But how else was I supposed to speak my truth?

You know, that your seed had been molesting me?

That your seed had been raping me?

That your seed had scared me

Into believing my life would be gone, if I ever told a soul?

You know how it felt being 6 years old?

7, 8, 9 and 10?

Didn’t know the value of what was between my legs

And instead of protecting me, you took a blind eye

You knew what was happening, remember you made me swear?

On the Bible, that what you saw wasn’t there?

People always wonder why I don’t come around.

It’s cause every time I’ve tried, you’re there.

And I promised I’d take y’all names to my grave

But I will never suffer in silence again

This year is the last year, you’ll have power over me. 

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Papa de Chocolate II/III

Beep. My phone rung, it was my friendly reminder of my date with Kierra was in a few and it was time to leave, if I wanted to make it on time. This girl was something special. She was a breath of fresh air compared to the other women I dated, she had me shook. My brother put us in contact because she was Facebook stalking, 😏, and it was probably the best message request I had gotten on messenger in a minute.

I opted for a suit since I was treating her to this seafood restaurant down at the National Harbor, and she always raved about her hiding spot and the Farris wheel. She always said how her lame ass ex never took her out, so I told her dress up and get pretty, I was determined to seal the deal tonight. I opted for my navy Tom Ford three piece Windsor Suit, with a matching tie. I threw on some Clark’s dress shoes to match, my Movado gold accented watch and a sensible amount of her favorite cologne on me, Burberry Black. I told yall she was a big deal, right?

I texted her to inform her I was in route to her. Hopped in my truck, threw on one of her apple music playlists she sent me and proceeded to her place. I’m a man, and this woman gives me butterflies, what type of shit is this. I drove about twenty minutes to her crib, knocked on the door. When she opened, she was everything I didn’t think she would’ve been. See Kierra usually dresses down. I’ll catch her either before work or right after work, and her attire is always super chill. Which I didn’t mind, but when you see someone clean up and look even better, I was going to feast on her, all night.

I’m 6’2 and she’s about 5’8. Even with her heels on, she was still short. Kierra weighed no more than 130lbs, and had amazingly soft and chocolate skin. Thanks to my sisters, I can tell she doesn’t wear a whole lot of makeup, which meant the same face I’m going to sleep with tonight, will be the same face I wake up to in the morning. Damn, you look good boo; I kissed her soft ass lips. She smiled, I love her smile. She grabbed her clutch and we headed out the door. I walked her to my truck and helped her in, and she reached over to open my door. Shit, she opens doors? I laughed. She’s working her way right into my heart, men like to be treated nice too! Kierra was always nervous around me, I guess her history with men is about as shitty as mine, but where I guarded myself to never be hurt again; she embraces the opportunity as if she’s never been hurt before. It’s commendable as fuck.

We got situated in the ride and started to drive off. She was flicking it up on chat snap, or whatever app she was on, just being cute and enjoying the ride and the music. She took a break and started looking around as we were flying up 95 South. “Babe, where are we going?!” she asked. Her tone made me nervous, I put my hand on her thigh, told her to relax, we were staying in D.C. tonight, everything had been taken care of, and she has no worries. I smiled at her, she smiled back and she grabbed my hand and moved it closer to her love area. That’s how you feeling lil mama? I asked her, as she guided two of my fingers into her tight, wet walls. She grinded and moaned softly, and within a few minutes, she came. We’d been talking for months without penetration. When we met, she said she wanted to experience sex with someone who was already in love with her, to see if there was a difference. I respected that, and would eat her pussy now and then, promised myself when I got to that level I was going give it to her. “Babe, I’m hella lusty tonight. I don’t know if I want to wait anymore.” She stated while looking down at her phone. We’re here, I said. She looked up to see we were at her favorite seafood spot McCormick and Schmidt. “Wow, you pay attention to me, that’s sexy baby. Thank you so much!” she had the biggest smile on her face, I loved seeing her happy.

We got inside the restaurant and we had a nice private table in the corner, overlooking the water. We had three bottles of wine. She got a little more lit and started taking shots. A woman who can handle her liquor is a woman who deserves this dick tonight. Ima fuck the shit outta you tonight, boo. I said while she sucked on her lime, and rubbing her pretty white polished toes on my groin. She was getting us all excited and I couldn’t wait. Kierra is your typical inquisitive woman, she wants details, wants to know the ins and outs. I shut her up with a kiss and paid our check, I flashed a smile at her and I could tell from her body language I had her wet. We got back to the whip and headed to her hiding spot as she calls it. I got us a nice room at the Aloft hotel, overlooking the Ferris wheel and water.

We checked in and watching her walk in her silver heels, and the way her black dress hugged her body. She always call me chocolate daddy, but she was the Hershey to my kisses. We checked into the hotel and proceeded to the elevator. As soon as the doors shut, I dropped down to my knees and began to demolish her. Watching her grip the railings and moan “fuck, babe”, I felt her walls tighten. I was about to go in harder until the elevator bitch said “5th floor”, I got up and showed her the way out. The look on her face was beautiful, we had just gotten started. We got into the room and she needed to freshen up and get comfortable. I poured us more drinks, but she said she wasn’t in the mood for them. Which sucked because I was ready to throw em back and fuck her crazy. I could tell she was a bit tense, she overthinks, just like me. I figured the less sobriety, the more liquid courage and we can really get this shit popping.

She came out the bathroom with one of the hotel’s robes on, and I couldn’t take it no more. I got up and walked over to her, picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist. “Hi baby”, she smiled. Hey sexy, I said as I walked her over to the king size bed. I gently laid her down, and found myself at my favorite place, my head between her legs. Kierra had the sexiest moans I’ve ever heard. She’s not loud, but she’s not quiet. She softly says fuck in between her labored breaths, and moans and bites her lip. She said she liked when a man played with his food, so as I was licking her up, I began to finger her. Playing with her g-spot and sucking on her clit, Kierra was losing it. “Fuck, Zae.” In between breaths, clinching her legs around my head, “ok, ok, okay baby! Enough!” She was trying to tap out, I wouldn’t let her. I put her legs up on my shoulders, and placed my arms around the top of her thighs, stop running. You’re not going anywhere until I’m done. I smiled at her. I would lick and suck on her clit fast and slow, when she caught my rhythm she began to grind with it. That’s what the fuck I’m talking about. Ride my fucking tongue. The unity in our bodies had us in sync. I felt her walls begin to pulsate, her legs were shaking, her bottom lip quivered and she released herself in my mouth. ”ok, baby enough!” She begged me. My mission was accomplished.

I got up and wiped her juices from my chin, laughing at her sprawled out on the bed. You ok, boo? I asked her. She gave me the look of death. ”Why you do that?” she asked. Do what? I smiled at her again, before she could even say another word out her mouth, I had her legs pinned back and my dick sliding inside of her. FUCK! She felt so good. Her tight, wet ass pussy was everything. I could tell I was hurting her, my dick is big. I slowed up a little bit to help her get adjusted, giving her a little more dick each time I went in until my balls met with her ass cheeks. You ok? Am I hurting you? I asked, her face was saying stop but her body was screaming more. “I’m ok, baby. Pain is pleasure,” she moaned. It was more than just sex to me at this point. It was breathtaking finally fucking my crush, seeing her body yearn for me, seeing her go into ecstasy and knowing it was because of me. Every time she moaned, my pounds were harder. I had her legs pinned all the way back, again and every thrust she got from me, she started squirting on my dick. I loved this shit, and I was loving this bitch. I’d never say that out loud though, shhh yall.

I flipped her ass over, and without question she got into that legendary doggy style pose. You know, face down, ass up! Her whole upper body, laid flat on the bed and that ass was just perfectly tooted up waiting for me. I slid inside her walls, and she came to me. Throwing that ass back like a champ, and I was catching that shit like a pro. You like this shit, huh boo? She had me feeling like the man, watching her bubble butt bounce back and forth on my dick. Watching her grip the sheets, and call to God, while I pleasure her was a treat.

She made the right decision fucking with me and I made the right decision fucking with her, and this was just the beginning of out night. She sat herself up with her elbows propped, spread her legs a little more and really started throwing her ass back. I wasn’t even moving, she started fucking me. No. I pushed her back down and began savagely demolishing her pussy. Her moans turned to screams, and they were so sexy to me. “Oooh, fuck babe. Don’t stop”, I knew she liked that shit. I felt my dick begin to pulsate, and I guess she did too. She flipped herself around with such quickness, I didn’t know what was happening, until I felt her take my dick in her mouth. Her pretty white nails looked good wrapped around my dick. Her full, luscious lips, and wet mouth accepted him, as much as she could. She wasn’t a pro, but she had me gone. She stroked and sucked my dick, until I exploded. I didn’t want to disrespect her, and cum in her mouth, but she grabbed me by my ass cheeks and pushed me into her. I came so hard, and so much she choked. “Fuck, babe!” she yelled, “round 2?”

I laid on the bed, and she climbed on top of me. She said, “It’s my turn to have fun enjoying the view”. Kierra had gold between her leg, and gold in her heart. She was my little gold mine, and I knew this was the last time either of us would be starting over..

20 comments for part III. 

Don’t Fall In Love by Lady R

Don’t fall in love with a woman like me..

Because I can’t love you back..

I’m not capable of showing emotion…

I’ll use you for what I need..

A physical connection and when I’m done…

I’ll leave you..

No explanation…


I’m not the type you want to give your heart to…

I don’t know how to take care of it..

I look at it..

Hold it roughly..

I might even try to give it back..

But you’re too stubborn to listen

And insist on me keeping it…

So I’ll put on the shelf like all the others…


Don’t tell me you want me..

Because I’ll lie to you and say I want you too.

Truth is you’re only good for one thing to me..

An orgasm.. 

And once that’s complete 

What else do I need you for?

I don’t need those cuddles at night..

I’ll call you when I want you again…


Don’t fall in love with a woman like me…

Because I can’t love you back..

That spot behind my rib cage…

Where my heart use to be…

Empty..

Those emotions of

Empathy…

Sensitivity…

Caring..

No longer exists…

So get involved at your own risk…


I’m not the type of woman you give your love to…

I’ll admit I’ll use 

Manipulate you..

Get into your mind 

Have you on cloud nine 

Then snatch that happiness from you..

Leaving you in a pool of devastation…

Like I’ve been left so many times before…


I can’t love you..

Because I don’t know how to…


Lady R © 2015

Papa de Chocolate Part I/III

It was so hard for me to assess this man. I mean, we had met on this dating site and had been kicking and chilling but I couldn’t figure out what he wanted from me. I mean for the life of me I was trying to get a feel of his candy stick and he wouldn’t let me. I began to wonder if something was wrong with me. It wasn’t until he broke it down, I don’t know if I could please you. I told him he didn’t have to worry, he was in good hands cause little mama was going to take care of him 😏.

I planned the night, perfection to a T. I had my outfit slayed, hair laid, and pussy trimmed by the gawds and feeling fresh. I knew everything I wanted to talk about, had conversations starters that would point me in the right direction if this fuck fest was going to pop off tonight. He texted me I’m on the way, and I finished my final makeup touches and made sure I walked out looking better than a snack, but more like his thanksgiving dinner. My dress was everything. Black, sleeveless with a faux diamond collar. Size 6, fitted to perfection. Hair laid with a simple side part. Silver open toes heels with white toes. Silver clutch and a simple makeup look with a matte red lip.

I heard him pull up, because he likes his music loud. Getting ready to head out, he knocks on the door and I open it to a fest of milk chocolate passion. Damn, you look good boo, he kissed me. *Swoons* who knew a man could look this good just for me. We headed out and he opened my door. Assisted me into his truck and I reached over and opened his door, “shit, she opens doors?” he said laughing. I chuckled. This tall glass of chocolate milk could have had whatever he wanted. Zae and I met right around the time my last man asked me for a break, to “explore” his options because he “saw forever” and wanted to get his ho out. Who knew that this man would pop up right on time and have me say bye to the fuck boy!

Zooming in is nice ass pick up, I kept glancing over at him. Man, he looks good. “Babe, where are we going?” I noticed we were on 95 heading towards D.C. which I considered to be a monkey wrench. I can’t get fucked up, and I can’t let him get loose. We were too far from home! He told me to relax, while putting his hand on my left thigh, “We’re staying down here tonight. I took care of everything don’t worry,” and he flashed that smile. That smile that allowed me to know, he was up to no good and this evening was about to be, fun. Getting caught up in the sex playlist he had bumping, we arrived at McCormick and Schmidt location in National Harbor.

First of all, National Harbor is beautiful and I was taken aback to know that he had even been paying attention to me. I had told him how it was so much I wanted to do with my ex and never could because it was always on my dime and where I could afford for me  to do the things I wanted to do, I couldn’t because I wouldn’t want to leave him out. So I missed out on a lot. We got into the restaurant and we had a nice little private table in the corner. It was late so business was a little slow, which is perfect because I hate crowds. We laughed and talked about life and past experiences over bottles of wine, amazing food and dessert. Took a few tequila shots, and while I was sucking on my lime, he says “Ima fuck the shit out of you tonight”. Immediately, my kitty started throbbing and lubricating herself, the problem is I didn’t have on panties. Oh, yeah?  I responded. How so? I wanted to hear what he had planned. But he just smiled that smile. He paid our check and we got back to his truck and drove to the Aloft Hotel. Another thing he had been listening to, this hotel has the sexiest showers I’ve ever seen in my life.

We checked in and headed towards our room. On the elevator, he pressed the button for the 5th floor and as soon as the doors closed, he dropped down to his knees and cradled his face in my pussy. I was already on the wall and held on to the railings for balance. I loved the way his lips felt on mine, just gentle kisses with a savage tongue twist, he always made me and my clit his bitch. “5th floor” the elevator buzzed, he got up as the doors open “after you, my lady” he said, and again that damn mischievous smile.

Zae always had a hold on me, he came into my life when I was at my low. Fueling me with motivation and support. He’d always say “when you encounter a better man, you become a better woman” I never understood it until others began to compliment the change in me, I learned the better man was him and I was forming into his equal. We got to the room, 524 and I was wet and just ready for him. I took off my shoes and headed to the bathroom. “You want more drinks, Hun?” I heard him shout. Nah, babe I’m good, I just want you; I shouted back. Freshening up, I took off everything and put on the hotels soft white robe and fuzzy socks and proceeded to my man.

He wasted no time really, as soon as he caught sight of me, he took me. Nestling his head between my legs again, he devoured me. He had the perfect lips, an amazing size tongue and he had no problem playing with his food. He stuck two fingers inside my love walls while still sucking and kissing on my pussy. Once his finger found my g-spot he kept them there, fucking with the intensity of his touch inside of me, I came. My legs started shaking and I tried to run but his grips on my thighs had me locked. He looked at me, “stop running. You not going anywhere until I’m done.” He gave me all types of tongue action that left me clinching the sheets, and praying to the Lord. A tingle shot down my, and I tightened them around his head. The tighter my legs were, the harder he licked, and the more I came. Ok, ok, okay! Baby, enough. I begged him to stop.

He looked up at me laughing.  Apparently, eating my pussy and snatching my soul was a game to him and it was time for me to show him who he was fucking with…

20 comments and I will post Part 2 of Papa de Chocolate – 9/25.

Insatiable

Kiss me
Suck me
Touch me
FUCK!

in the most delicate places…
down below my navel…
anyway you want me…
You still know me…

Hair Pulls
Ass Smacks
Neck Grabs
YES!

from the root, though, don’t damage my bush, boo…
echoing, the pain is beyond exuberating…
squeeze, until the circulation begins to fade…
Pain is pleasure, you can have your way…

Liberating
Salivating
Waiting
CRAVE!

feeling the backup releasing…
at the thought of your taste…
desperately for the next race….
an insatiable desire for you…

**Did yall catch the flow?**

AN

 

She Stayed…

She began to cry more tears

Held on to more fears

Scared to walk away

she stayed…defeated

Her needs have gone ignored

Her desires she no longer adorns

She wants to walk away

she stayed… defeated

Fights back and forth in her mind

Does she stay or go this time

Said she can’t take it no more

she stayed… defeated

Time had passed

She got strong again

She refused to stay mistreated

She walked away… undefeated

 

 

 

Love Suicide – Intro Poem

I remember when my heart sought refuge with you

Now it seems to seek refuge from you

How could a love so amazing turn so cold

Two people with the same past, same current want the same future become so incompatible 

How is it that we can love it and hate it

Saying that it’s over, but never really leaving

This burning desire to love and be loved

Destroying each other one fight at a time, one thrust at a time

We’re crazy out our mind if we think this wouldn’t end with love suicide.

Hook: love suicide – loving you I will slowly die, slowly die

Love suicide – Loving you I will slowly die, slowly die

And you will never understand how my love runs deep and deeep man

You will never understand, how my love runs deep and deep man….. 

*Old piece from 2010 might upload the MP3 *



Late nights…

3 am always rolls around when I wake up feigning for him the most. Ju’C always wanted daddy but it was always this time when she took control and my body became hers. Waking up soaking wet and gushy between my legs always catches me by surprise because I never notice the intensity of my dreams until I’m awakened by this.

Baby was home from work finally and sleeping so peacefully. He had been gone protecting our country for the last eight months and the only thing he wanted most when he came home was a meal. I was a damn good entree, too. However I am a good girl, I waited for baby while he was gone and when I woke up wanting him, I’d take a trip into my fun drawer and send him some motivation to make sure he brought his fine ass back home.

Baby was six foot one with brown hair and these beautiful teddy bear brown eyes, his military trained body is in line with “The Rock” with a personality like Channing Tatum. Bites lips, I got lucky. Baby was fit, and didn’t play when it came to our health. He taught me how, although my body isn’t bad, what I put in affects more than just satisfying my hunger and in negative ways. But that’s not what this is about, let’s just say because of Baby, I’ve been feeling my best self and he’s loving it.

Anyway, I rolled over to check my phone, 3:17 am; fuck. I have to be to work in a few hours but I can’t fall back asleep without him. Ju’C was in full rage mode, she was wetter than usual and the urge was stronger and I’m sure it was because he was there. I started wiggling around in the bed to loosen his grip on me, he always held me so tightly and any time I moved he’d hold tighter. “Where you going, princess?”, he said as he kissed my neck. ‘Bathroom, I’ll be back’ I kissed his hand and moved from the bed. Waking him wasn’t my intention, but now that I had his attention, it was party time. I handled what I needed to do in the bathroom and gave myself a pep talk, and headed back to bed.

Baby was looking at me when I came back to bed, I always smiled whenever he’d catch me looking at him. I try to admire God’s work and just smile at such a beautiful specimen. I crawled back in bed, ‘love you, baby’ I said and snuggled close. “Princess,” he said talking but singing kind of way. I laughed and kissed his arm, he began kissing my ear and neck. I really wasn’t in the mood for the sensuality tonight, making love was cool but I wanted to fuck! So I turned over and pressed my lips against his. His head was nestled in my right arm, while my left hand rubbed his man. I kissed him so passionately, sucking on his tongue and biting his bottom lip. Adjusting my hand on his dick, my rubs turned into jerks, and while she was creaming in overflow, his friend was just getting started.

“Sit on my face,” he said in between kisses and I obeyed. But tonight I wasn’t going to be the only one enjoying oral. I hated giving head but I was so in love with him, my mouth watered for it. I mounted his face like I was receiving a trophy and took his manhood into mine. Baby’s tongue work never takes me long to get there, it had been a while so he was in for a drown. I took every inch of his dick that I could in to my mouth. Sucking and slurping him slow, as his mouth made love to me, mine made love to him, but tonight wasn’t about passion, I needed him at his hardest because I wanted to feel pain.

Once I felt his shaft harden completely, I removed myself from his lips and sat on his fucking dick! I had to work him in because even though she was wet, she was tight and his entrance wasn’t easy. Mmmm, I moaned as I bit my lips. Baby had his hands on my hips to help guide his way in, I leaned over with my head into his neck moaning from the pain and pleasure. I worked my hips up and down slowly until she came and the pain went away.

Baby got excited because he started talking shit. “I missed this fuckin pussy, Princess. Take all this fuckin dick!” Pulling my hair and slamming me onto his dick, I couldn’t stop cummin and he was loving it. Baby was always rough when he handled me sexually, he grabbed me by my neck and flipped us into missionary position. “You like that shit? Huh? Crazy bitch! I love you” and just that moment baby took off, he hit this pussy in every position and made me cream and scream. He gave me everything I needed and we both came, hard and together. “Thank you baby,” I said as I kissed him and rolled over, 4:45, guess I’ll make it to work on time. I wouldn’t have it any other way, I knew I was totally gonna start loving my late nights again.

I wish

I wish *sigh* I wish you knew the way my body craves you
See cause – when I’m not with you my body is weak

My breathings fatigued

My lady gets these urges, like she’s calling your name
And I don’t even know why you got me this way

No man has ever had me say his name

And it’s like with every thrust my body gush
And I can feel you cum inside of me
..But it don’t stop there

Cause once you flip over, Ima get on top
Ima ‘dip it low, bring it up slow’ on it

Ima ‘rriiiiiide it’ like it’s got a saddle on it

And no baby these tricks ain’t for kids
Cause I can put my sneakers on

And ‘drop it like it’s hot’ on it

 

AN

Sometimes, you just… 😏

Sometimes, you just gotta lay it the fuck down

Bite my neck, baby pull my hair

Leave not one inch of my body untouched

It’s your playground and I love the rush…

The excitement you fill me with…

Leaves my legs shakin and body convulsin

My favorite part is when I feel your explosion 😏

Love it when you fall asleep deep in it

Feelin you swell, and we go again is my mission

AN