#GirlsRuleWednesdays Random Thoughts of Ashleigh Noelle

#GRW: The Titty War

Hey my loves;

Before Anything Else (B.A.E) – Special shout out and THANKS to my girl Kiaya at Kiaya Olivia for nominating TSW for the Sunshine Blogger Award; thank you so much, girl!. Wrae at One Blog, One day at a time for nominating TSW for the Mystery Bloggers Award; thank you love bug!
And I got another nomination for Sunshine Bloggers but she hasn’t posted her link yet. I will update, but thank you to Meek for that nomination as well!
TSW has received 5 nominations, go me!

Today, I’m just gonna be completely transparent. I am in the middle of a war with my tits and it’s driving me fucking nuts! One of my #Flirty30Transformation posts I talked about my weight loss.

I went from 225 lbs with 38 H breasts to 120lbs with 34 DDD/E breast. Currently sitting nice at 140 with 36 G cup tittes, again.

I’m so depressed. I’ve never in my adult life had to deal with muffin top titties, EVER. Lane Bryant saw me every other month, I was a big girl but I always made sure my chest was FLAWLESS. Why? Because it’s the first thing people notice! In high school, they knew me as “Ash with the big titties and glasses”. My breast had me super insecure at 15/16 years old. Constant back pain and I was denied a reduction because “you may have kids one day”, so I dealt. I’m in constant pain all day, every day. My back always hurts.

I can’t sleep on my stomach comfortably, I sometimes roll over my own tit while I’m sleeping and lemme tell you, that nipple pinch HURTS. My breast falls out of my sports bras and tank tops and right now, they are literally spilling OUT of the top of my bra because I’m truly in denial and hoping to drop this weight again and won’t need bigger bras. Sucks because I love my little bit of thickness but back pain has returned due to the bewbies and it’s gotta go.

I know there are a lot of big boobie divas out there who don’t get the love they need when it comes to the bewbs (I know this because y’all keep wearing black, white and beige bras!!). Please feel free to take a look at Lane Bryant (not a sponsored post) and get you some spice. Although I couldn’t fit LBs clothes, I often shopped there and then would go to VS and match my panties to my bras so I could at least have matching sets.

The attention that my boobs bring annoys me because I can’t really hide them, and I have to be very careful in what I wear and the pictures I take and post. Crazy how men have seen tits all their life and see a little bit of cleavage from me and it’s like they ain’t never seen it before. It kinda messes with my psyche and makes me feel a little insecure sometimes. But, when life gives you lemons….

Talk to me! Have you had a titty war experience? Any suggestions on the back pain?

Some goodies for you:
Sweatcoin – If you do a lot of walking, wouldn’t you wanna get paid for itif you could? I found out about this awesome app called Sweatcoin. Download it to your phone, sign up for your account and boom, begin to collect sweatcoins just for walking. You can then redeem them for plenty of items in their store. From iPhone X to $1000 from PayPal. Use my special sign up and you’ll be credited 5 Sweatcoins…
Influenster – Product review. Get chosen for their special VoxBox and become a social influencer.
HeartBeat – Product review/brand ambassador. You basically get paid for promoting on your social media! ( I made $10 on one post last year, not a lot but that’s a Starbucks Coffee and danish!)

Until next time,
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6 comments

  1. First and foremost, congratulations on your nominations! I had a friend who also was denied a breast reduction in her early twenties for the same reason and she was always telling us how much her back hurt. My own boob war has been feeling insecure when men gawk at my boobs and having fibrocystic breasts which means I’m prone to lumps that cause pain.
    I hope you find relief hun someday soon.

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    1. Thank you so much, my love!
      Men are trash, and I totally get it because it makes me uncomfortable too.
      Is there a treatment/cure for fibrocystic breast? Or is it just controlled with pain meds?
      Thank you and I hope you do as well.

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  2. Congrats!!!!
    I am too always at war with my chest. I am in the middle of my weight loss journey, so I am trying to be patient because my trainer has said it will get better as I continue to lose. Sharing any and everything I can with you along the way. For the back pain, I do hear that yoga balls help a lot and stretching night and day.

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    1. I appreciate you, thank you.
      Yeah I’m thinking about finding a yoga class and getting into that. My ex use to stretch and massage me at night, that helped. Almost makes me want that old thing back 😩😂. thank you for reading and supporting me you’re the best!

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