Random Thoughts of Ashleigh Noelle

2K18: Day 1 – I’m baaacccckkkk!!

My Loves!

Oh, my goodness!! It’s been so long and I missed you all so much! I had to take a much needed mental break. Just had a lot going on and my head was all over the place; but, I think it’s safe to say that I am back and it’s time to kick 2K18’s ass!

H A P P Y  N E W  Y E A R!!!

I pray that you all are filled with love, happiness, and blessings all year long!

First I have to say congrats to Ashley, Chelsea, and Keara for winning our giveaway “The Outlet” I am psyched that you ladies won! Thank you for supporting TSW and for being apart our family!

We also were nominated for the Liebster award! Thanks to Taneisha over at Simply Janae, my post and nominations will be up later this week.

The last few weeks of 2017 I took time to get my psyche back in shape. I began to miss my family. Christmas wasn’t the same this year because the kids were gone with their dad, and then there was me. It was the first holiday season I spent alone since 2007. I spent a lot of time remembering the last 10 holidays, from 08-2014 my holidays were spent with my ex-husband. 2015/16 I was with my ex and then this year, it was just me.

My depression kicked in really bad because I never really thought I’d be in this place again. Single, lonely, a little bit miserable but not a whole lot. I will say, when I walked away from my last relationship, I prayed for PEACE and SOLIDARITY. I walked away broken, hurt, confused, angry, and sad but instead of crying, I started smiling. I had to teach myself, to focus on the positives and not the negatives, and taking that mindset, has changed my whole outlook.

I met a guy, who I’ve been kinda dating, I think, and one day I was really sad, he came to the rescue. He said “you may not have it the way you want it, but you got it”, that changed my whole outlook on life. One of the things I’ve been working on in therapy and during my #Flirty30Transformation is to focus on the positives and not dwell in the negatives. Seriously, when I find myself stressing and on the verge of spazzing out, I have to step aside and ask myself – is this out of my control? Can I change this negative into a positive? With doing that, I’ve been letting go of what I can’t change and taking control of what I can. I’ve been looking for the smallest light, in a dark room, because all I need is a glimpse of hope.

I’ve been battling some health issues and walked away from #TSWRadio, which sucks because I truly enjoyed and loved the Crown Media family! But I’ve been battling migraines, and when they hit, they hit. Finally got the right team of doctors and we’re working to figure out the cause and creating a plan of care that will get ya girl back to normal.

I finished writing stories for the  book that I am co-authoring with two of my writer friends, it will be for sale in February or March, and I will definitely update you all so that you can support me.

Lastly, we are a little over one month away from my 30th birthday! In my mind I’m like no one is going to buy you anything. But, positive thoughts only!!! So,  I’ve created a wishlist, if any of you loves me enough to bless me for my birthday and also am taking donations of no more than $5 to support the TSW movement and activities we have brewing for this year! I am so excited, I’m hitting the ground running. I have a lot in store this year and I can’t wait to share this experience with you guys! It’s LIT!!!

Until next time my loves!!!

Besos!

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