I never understood why or how people can be, want to be or try to maintain a friendship with their ex. I don’t know if it’s childish of me or what but IF WE BREAK UP, WE CANT BE FRIENDS. I’m sorry. I tried it. Doesn’t work for me.
I’m the type of person where I can’t settle for a piece if I had the whole thing. So I don’t deal with it. Depending on how it ended or why, being friends shouldn’t even be an option. Unless it’s some growing apart type shit – which I’ve never had. Some say it’s about being mature. Whatever. No where does it say I have to maintain a friendship with an ex lover.
I close chapters (relationships) and bury books (the person). Because that works for me. After our season ends, while I’d still love them, I wouldn’t give not one fuck about them anymore. Might be cordial if I keep them as my friends on social media. See me in public I MIGHT say hi.
Constant reminders of why I am different from the world and why it’s best to stay alone, high and quiet. I refuse to settle for a peace and be unfulfilled while they are content and happy. I’d rather fill my heart with a new.
I want what I want when I want it. Give me all or NOTHING. We have to settle everywhere else, the one place you should never settle or compromise is where your heart lives.
I will never settle in that aspect. Home is where the heart lives and right now my heart is……